My steps don’t seem to finish and arrive
My hands don’t seem to always like to help
I question the direction I’m going every time
I stop and take a closer look at myself
My eyes tried to hold back the stream of tears
My heart can’t seem to process every emotion
Sometimes I think I’ve turned into something
Like a robot struggling to be human
I feel afraid to love
’Cause I think I’ve lost my heart
And I can’t really take the pain
I feel afraid to trust
’Cause I know the hardest part
Is to open up and be hurt again
My head seems to stay up in the clouds
My feet sure are stepping on the earth
But I’ve a hard time to be on the ground
I’m starting to feel like I’m losing worth
My soul is left intact
My chest hurts by the fact
That the pain I try to hide away
Becomes a part of me, day by day
I feel afraid to face the truth
’Cause even if I do learn
What can be done?
I feel afraid to carry on
’Cause when I take a step
It could be another mistake
I hope it’s just all in my mind
And it’ll be through in time
I’m aimlessly pacing right now
Through this long, dark hallway
But what can I do now right now
Is to try to love myself.
